Has anybody watched the movie "The Men Who Stare at Goats"? For a George Clooney movie, it was rather disappointing. Supposedly a comedy...I think I only laughed a couple of times...and they weren't even big laughs. One particular scene blew me away though. And for that alone, I reckon, it was worth having to bear with the whole thing.
That scene involved George Clooney (Lyn) and Ewan McGregor's (Bob) characters. At that point, they were kidnapped by a criminal gang and Bob was freaking out. Lyn said something like this to Bob:
Have you heard of Optimum Trajectory before? Your life is like a river, Bob. If you're aiming for a goal that isn't your destiny, you will always be swimming against the current. Young Ghandi wants to be a stock-car racer? Not gonna happen. Little Anne Frank wants to be a High School teacher. Tough titty Anne. That's not your destiny. But you will go on to move the hearts and minds of millions. Find out what your destiny is and the river will carry you. Now sometimes events in life give an individual clues as to where their destiny lies.
For many, many years, I have solely concentrated on being the best mother I can be, believing that is my only life purpose. After I quit my job to be a stay at home mom, I gradually lost my way in all other aspects of my life. I accepted things just the way they were because I thought they were simply meant to be that way. I don't think I was actually 'swimming against the current'...I just didn't know where I was going.
Only recently did I come to realize that, although being a mother is my most important calling, it is but one part of my whole being. In the last couple of years, I found out there are actually a lot of other things (no matter how small they may seem), I am good at as well. I am very grateful because the people around me (and that includes those of you who faithfully read and comment on this blog) have given me the validation I badly needed.
In my prayers, I always ask the Lord to reveal His plans for me and to guide me in His direction. Now, more than ever before, those plans are beginning to get clearer. Slowly, things are falling into place.
2010 is indeed looking brighter. I truly believe I am now headed to where my destiny lies.